Love this Life! I have a t-shirt with this slogan on it, one of my favorites, and I have to say it is so true. This life, this journey I am on, is truly a wonderful and fascinating adventure. Sometimes the struggles go deep, but they always present me with an opportunity for growth if I am willing to take a look at myself. That opportunity allows me to turn those struggles into assets, to die a little and be reborn as a new 21st Century Man.
The struggle I went through this summer, the ending of a long relationship, was a tough one. I had to take a hard look at myself and my old patterns of behavior. I saw how I have always attracted in relationships that aligned with these old patterns and discovered a new core issue that centered around parenting. I had a glimpse of the power of obsession and how it is an unhealthy addiction in itself. Awareness of these old patterns is never enough. I find that I have to go deeper if I want to heal them and experience a true change of character. And I need help to do that because there is now way I can do it on my own.
A new life is unfolding for me as a result of my inner work and it is simply amazing. My old character wants to go out and look for that new life and make it happen, but trying to fix all the outside stuff is like running on a hamster wheel. When I try to arrange the world and the people in it to my liking, the whole thing just ends up collapsing like a house of cards. It’s when I go inside and dig around in the dirt that the real changes happen and those changes manifest out into my life. A wise man once said, “As within, so without.” Every single time I go in, I get to see the truth behind those simple words.
I have three blank pages left in the 200 page journal I started back in early July. It has been a summer of reflection, processing, note taking. I have been writing, but my creative energy has been directed inward toward healing and growth. Today I woke up and stared at one of those blank pages for a while. I felt peaceful, at ease, still. Like everything in this perfectly balanced Universe, my inner journey is returning now, moving outward to share the news of a good life with all who care to listen.